“It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat.”

“Citizenship in a Republic,”
Speech at the Sorbonne, Paris, April 23, 1910

In the meantime, it will no doubt be painful for you to reflect on losing half the capital you started the year with…my suggestion:

it might pay to open up a FXGame account (a demo account) at OANDA.com (yes, they do allow stops on individual positions, unlike forex.com ) and spend the first month or two of next year demo trading again.

All the best to you and yours, and I hope the grief process runs through quickly for you.

KiwiDon